Today I have been torn. Hurricanes make you think about what is really important to you. It makes you think about the eternal perspective. Living through Katrina changed me.
I no longer think about my stuff. I think about the people. The souls. The hurting hearts.
Today I have been torn between what my flesh wants to do and what my spirit yearns for. The flesh says "run for higher ground" but my spirit says "stand firm and help those who need you." It is pretty difficult to explain why you are staying in the path of a hurricane, especially when you are talking to people who love you and want you to be safe.
Just like when I was trying to explain why I quit my job and went to the school of ministry. Just like when I shared my heart for overseas missions and when I explained that I was moving to Honduras. Ministry is full of difficult conversations. This life of service, is unconventional and therefore controversial.
I have chosen to obey my spirit, which I believe is God's will for my life. Today I received a note from a friend...it said, "may you obey God in all you do." Thanks Mr. Jimmy, I needed that today.
Obedience doesn't always make sense...that is why it's called obedience. If I am obedient...I trust that God will take care of me and my relationships.