Let me tell you...I was definitely supposed to be there. I was able to touch base with people I hadn't had a chance to see yet, and meet a girl that I wanted to connect with once I got back. It was great to see friendly faces and get lots of hugs, but the best part was a scripture shared at the beginning of service.
It was shared by none other than my mentor...who didn't know I was at service...and who was going to share something all together different, but God spoke to her and she obeyed. She shared Isaiah 41:10-13 and it spoke to my heart, like God was in the room whispering it in my ear. It says,
"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. All who rage against you will surely be ashamed and disgraced; those who oppose you will be as nothing and perish. Though you search for your enemies, you will not find them. Those who wage war against you will be as nothing at all. For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you." (emphasis mine)
I remember all of the times I let fear and worry creep into my mind. All of the times I focused on the problem and not on God...and I had to repent. I thought I was doubting my ability to accomplish the task at hand...but in reality I was doubting God's ability to provide. So...today, I am starting over and I am going to walk like God is holding my right hand...I am going to walk with confidence that the God of Israel is going to help me.